it takes time

it happened just how I always imagine it would. so why do i feel this way? why do i feel so much sadness inside? How can someone whose suppose to makes me feel so complete, end up leaving me so EMPTY.

How can I love again when I can't stop loving the one that hurt me so much? if i could just turn back the time, if i have the power i'll probably make you stay but now, all that I ever held dear is just a memory.

its not love that takes time,
its the letting go that takes time, so much time.

goodbye...

i'm letting you go. i'm letting 'us' go.

i've finally accepted that this is the way things would have to be. that i should allow us both to be free enough to seek whatever it is that trully makes us happy. even if it isn't with each other.

i must admit you probably won't be too far away from my thoughts, and that thinking of you will still bring that tinge of regret. but i'm okay. i will be okay.

thank you for teaching me the most painful lesson in my life.

coping up..

waiting for a new beginning

current mood: sad.. so sad..

i want to hide,look for a place somewhere that nobody knows me, i'm tired being bullied. my anger somehow eat me alive." i don't wanna end up hurting myself just because i can't stop them.

Now, I know how it feels when you were so tired and needed some rest but was rejected by people whom you cared for. I should imitate God, leave without a single word and not a heavy heart. Continuously caring for those people, not from a distance but within my heart.

I know things would be very difficult, because I'm still holding on to my last grip and still on the process of letting it go from hands. Every step of it is a sacrifice but I know in the end, this will be best for me, for I will ache no more...

come back to me

If I had a chance to speak to again, would you listen?

don't know what I would say, but there's so much I want to tell you.

Where would I even begin?

You've changed me in such a profound way.

Every single day,

I think of the friendship that I'll never get back.

I think of how much fun we had back then.

Back when everything was so perfect.

Back to the day when I thought to myself how I'll never find the same happiness again.

I'm constantly frustrated with myself for what I did and I breakdown.

How much longer must I go on like this before I can speak to you again

—to go back to where we left off?


"help me my friend, oh im so tired"

disturb

Lately sobrang saya ko.. ganito ba talaga, after na maging happy ka ganun na lang kalungkot ang kapalit,

is this the prize of being happy?

the sorrow, the pain, the fear of the unknown future somehow eat me alive, and the loneliness is breaking my heart so bad..

i wanna commit suicide leaving the world behind,

I can live this sadness no longer,

"If I ever commit suicide,
Would you care that I died?
Would you cry and ask yourself why
You didn't get a chance to say good-bye?
Would you even come to my funeral
Dressed in black and filled with sorrow?
Please tell me now of how you feel,
So that I may still live and begin to heal."

im happy...

every single day of our life is a constant tug-of-war, between doing good and doing what you want.

and everyday God never allow to see someone down,

i've realize God always been there for me no matter how stupid things i've done.

Lately, been acting crazy and weird, i just sometimes caught myself smiling without any reason at all..

when we are out there looking for that perfect person, keep this things in our mind:

..people change no matter how hard they try not to..

..as we grow older, we mature and with each new level of maturity comes,
different ideas..different needs and wants..

..the person who was perfect for us at 20's could be the person we hate at 30's..

..we have to find someone who will: grow with us.. change with us.. laugh with us and cry with us..

..remember that there is no such perfect person in this world but there is will always be someone who will be with us for the rest of our lives...

"in life there are times that you have to face tough decisions, either you make it or you break it..but do remember whatever way you go "there are no wrong decisions in life, its for you to make it right."