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o much doubt And I can never tell you what about, there is still a lot of things I want to know the real existence about me, the truth..
hat you are here, I will have no fears. and your love has come to rescue me. From an old love that could not last, she is now gone, she's a part of my past. You came to me at troubling times, You held me, consoled me and enpowered me with a love so devine. That beyond a shadow of a doubt I know for sure, You are my second chance at love, my only cure!
you were born in October so we decided to get the first letter of the month O," so i end up like Owen..
na say Thank you to those poeple who helped me and shared their thoughts. It was really hard for me to face reality. We've already talked about what had happend and we fogive each other and I know that I also have my shortcomings.
too much attention to her phone because I trust her and I have faith in her.
y life more exciting. I went to church prayed for my family and for everyone around me. Day after, it seems like things were getting worsted and I feel like quitting, ending my life with a sharp knife, I don't wanna suffer or bothered with problems. I don't wanna be loaded with trials. Life seems too unfair, why some people live their life so much great and everything is given.
Last night I really had a terrible nightmare, my father visit in my dreams and its like I can't move and i tried to scream but no one hear me. I really don't have any idea why i came up with this thing, maybe its because I've only visited my father's grave once. but i hope he'll understand me, I'm here in manila and I'm working for his family he once left..
From the very beginning, I'm always afraid of the word Goodbye, It scares me to think that someone will leave me alone. I don't wanna be alone! I don't want to relive the things i did in the past because what happend in the past was traumatized me. It really hurts when someone tells
unaway together my friends 
makes us happy without doing a special thing. I realize that true happiness can only be felt if we're with a special someone. Even me I'm not happy with out my baby (mawala na ang lahat wag lng baby ko).
Damn.. I'm such a dork... I should not let her go.. I should not afraid. i miss you and i tell you i can feel it.. I'm afraid that i might be hurting myself I know i am, but there's nothing i can do, I wanna be loved. badly i need to be loved i'm upset, i miss you so much, If you're reading this, i just want yopu to know i miss you so much and i'm sorry for what i've done before that i was not strong enough to fight for our love.
I dunno if you guys watch or familiar with the movie "sisterhood of the traveling pants"
ve my all loving deeply and wholeheartedly, it would be truly emotional and euphoric experience. I will love you wider than the universe and powerful than the wind. My mind will never let go of you because i coudn't go of a day without thinking of you.
and got a new job Medical Representative, and i used to listen upbeat song everytime i need a "lifting" of the mood but suddenly in my first paragraph of writing, the music in radio had switch swiftly into mellow and here they played "Just when I needed you most" and the version from Dolly Parton.. sh*ttt its my fave artist and here we go it reminds me of someone, back when i was in high school.
I knew last night was very different, and many of my fears have now shown their fruits. Ive seen them grow on me, and blossom one by one carefully, painfully. And its more than a bitter pill to swallow, when you realize that the one thing you fear, is now concretely real, making sadness even more vividly piercing. Imagine when the very person who shields you and supports you, who makes you look forward to every morning and every goodnight, who lends you strength and gives new meaning to every experience, who can make all painful steps a joy or make you wait a lifetime if only to see each other once again, who can make every moment a beautiful dream and every dream the death of harsh reality, that the very person who is one of your biggest reasons for living no longer loves you-- and especially knowing that not anyone, not even (and most of all) you, can ever save the heart that had stopped beating. (Not to mention that some people, who you once thought would understand you best, are just glad to see it all end.)
If this pain could only be heard, it could probably make the whole world deaf. And when it rings across all oceans, and every mountain, echoing for all time, to reach every heart that has loved and lost, they would understand me. If each pound of sadness would bring a tear, it will rain gloomily for days on end. But the world would take comfort in each drop of sincerity, and revel delicately to mirror my unbridled promise.
Once again, I had my heart got broken. And my soul has once again gone empty and blank. A clean slate to paint my life once again, but with a heart who remembers each drop of blood that I had shed for the one person who still holds great value in my life; in my hand a penny to take chances at wishing, and in the other a light of hope.
But now, I am not ready to risk my penny into the well, for I do not know what I would wish for. And I still cannot see hope, for I have closed my eyes trying to see the fading dreams once again. I still cannot fully accept that I have awaken to see this love end.
when Im alone lying on the grass.......
How i wish i could kiss you like you did to others, I'm not like him nor other person. But wishing to be like a person who i never wanted to be. My heart beating am to fears. My tears want to fall but not for my sorrow. My mind want to say goodbye but my eyes wont close and yet leave the word hello. My feet want to walk while my hair want to run. My nose want to leave a mark while my fingerstips unmark.
do not know why....all I know is I
Did you see the movie a walk to remember? well...here are some few of the heart-warming lines in the book “A Walk to Remember”…
Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.”
