Happy Valentine's Day

I couldn't really think of something to write about LOVE, I mean I've been hurt and disappointed this past few months and It would really really unfair because definitely I wont be writing good things about it.

Well First of all let me define LOVE, for me Love is nothing a but a serious disease, could be curable or incurable, that depends on how you fight for it, but sometimes if you think you can no longer hold on, some people take their own life, and if you tough enough to fight for it, then you're back in the game.

What I'm really trying to say is that, I'll be celebrating Valentine's Day ALONE...

kelangan ko ang tulong mo, kaibigan

tagal tagal na rin palang akong hindi nakapag-sulat, sa totoo lang di naman talaga ako ganun ka busy kasi wala naman talaga akong trabaho, yong pag Do-dota lang talaga ang kinabaliwan ako kaya masyado akong na focus dun sa larong iyon.

Kumusta na nga ba ako?

Ito yong tanong sa sarili ko habang sinusulat ko ang entry na ito, napansin ko lang kasi sobrang pabaya na ako sa sarili ko, walang ganang maghanap ng trabaho, lagi na lang umaasa sa padala ng isang matalik na kaibigan, pinapaniwala ko sya na may trabaho na ako pero sa totoo wala na man talaga.

Kumusta na nga ba ang buhay ko?

malapit na me lumagpas sa kalendaryo pero heto pa rin ako walang permamenting trabaho, hindi ko alam kung anong gusto ko sa buhay ko, feeling ko walang direction, kaya sana minsan nga naiisip ko sana habang natutulog ako sana kunin na lang ako niLord, sana nga si Lord kumuha sa akin.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero hindi ko rin alam pano mag karoon ng isang magandang simula para sa isang pagbabago,

sana mabigyan nyo ako ng payo para sa ikabubuti ko,

maraming salamat kaibigan..

missing you

I've learned...

that the people you care about most

in life are taken from you too soon.

and I've learned also that one day

you will see them again and bring back

the smile in your face.

and Because of you... I laugh a little harder,

cry a little less,

and smile a little more. :)

I'm holding on to something that used to be there hoping it will come back, knowing it won't. :(

I wonder why do people fall out of love?

Paulit- ulit na tanong ko sa sarili ko.. Sa umpisa parang ang tamis ng mga binibigkas mong pangako, at sa huli kaw lang ang kawawa.

Kesyo kelangan mo ng space, I need to find myself.. ano ba talaga bakit ang daming lumalabas na rason para lang malet-go mo yong isang tao.

Bakit ba ganun..

sabi nga sa isang kanta "I'd rather leave while I'm in love".

hay pag-ibig nga naman talaga bakit pa napauso, kahit wala sa trend anjan pa rin..

Basta para sa akin tama na yong minahal ko kita at kahit papano minahal mo rin ako kahit sandali man lang..

Missing the Bridge

I just can't stop thinking of you, can't imagine we parted our ways for no reason at all.. Why do i feel loneliness inside me, why do I care so much about you, I can not have feelings for you, I can not love you, But why I'm always thinking of you every minute, every seconds of the day..

I hate this.. I don't wanna live in pretensions, I can no longer hold this feelings..

Bakit ba ganito, bakit ba ako nasasaktan, napagkasunduan naman natin na FRIENDS lang tayo, kahit ganun bakit nag iba ang takbo ng buhay natin, I haven't heard anything from you, you totally forget all about me, I haven't receive any text from you..

I tried not to text you because I want you to miss me like I do, pero wala eh, It's been two weeks pero di pa rin kita nararamdaman, tinuluyan mo na ata akong kalimutan.

Napaka-unfair mo naman kala ko ba kasama kita sa paglakbay ng buhay ko, akala ko ba na you're always there for me, nasan na yong mga pangako mo?

I remember when you told me "Always remeber that I love you so much" gagohan ba to?

Hindi ko naman hiningi sau na maging tayo kasi alam naman natin di tayo pwede, kala ko we can be good friends, pero nasaan ka? nandyan ka nga pero di naman kita maramdaman, binaliwala mo ako.. I wish I could tell you na nasasaktan ako, gusto ko umiyak pero para saan? Gusto ko sabihin sayo na nasasaktan ako pero di ko masabi.

Sana dumating ang araw na ikaw naman ang maghabol sa akin, maramdaman mo kung gano kasakit pag binaliwala ka, sana makita kitang umiyak dahil sa akin..

a day to remember

It's the Lover

He broke your heart and said goodbye
After promising forever
You wonder why you even tried
he was such a good pretender

The love you gave was all in vain
and nothing anyone can say
could ever make you love that way again

It's the lover not the love
who broke your heart last night
It's the lover not the dream
that didn't work out right
if you listen to your heart
you'll know it's true
It's the lover not the love
who deserted you

Don't stop reachin' for the stars
Let tomorrow live inside you
And just remember who you are
Keep the faith and love will find you

A heart in love can lose it's true
Don't give up in time to find
the one who's right will come to you

It does no good to second guess
whether love is wrong or right
If it was really meant to be
he'd be with you tonight

tired

all I want to do is to spend time with you, but then again something always get in my way, it seems that life treated me so unfair, i could not even get in touch with you.. I'm having hard time fixing things, change it to a better one.

I'm tired trying to change something, something that I could divert my attention so I would not have to worried about myself thinking of you, something that i would tell to myself that i have completely forgotten you..

magagawa mo kaya ito?

What do you think about these pictures?

miss you like crazy

Even though its been so long,

my love for you keeps going strong

I remember the things that we used to do,

a kiss in the rain Til' the sun shined through,

I'd try to deny it, but I'm still in love with you

I miss you like crazy,

I miss you like crazy,

ever since you went away

Every hour of every day,

I miss you like crazy,

I miss you like crazy

No matter what I say or do,

there's just no getting over you

I can see the love shining in your eyes,

and it comes as such a sweet surprise

If seeing's believing its worth the wait,

so hold me and tell me its not too late

We're so good together,

we're starting forever now,

Just one night

and we'll have that magic feeling like we used to do

Hold on tight

and whatever comes our way

we're gonna make it through

If seeing's believing its worth the wait,

so hold me and tell me its not too late

We're so good together,

we're starting forever now

And I miss you like crazy,

I miss you like crazy

No matter what I say or do there's just no getting over you

And I miss you (baby), I miss you (baby),

all the tender love you gave me

When a feeling gets this strong,

you know the real thing come along

And I miss you,

I miss you like crazy baby,

only (you're) should be "your" sweet love Can save me,

I miss you like crazy,

a love like ours will never end

Just touch me and we're there again,

I miss you like crazy,

I miss you like crazy

Sana kung alam ko lang na aalis ka, sana sinabi ko yong bagay bagay na gusto kong sabihin, sana nayakap kita, sana nagkaroon tayo ng time to talk about some things. sana...

Hindi ko alam pero na miss kita ng sobrang sobra, mga ngiti mo, tawa natin,yakap mo dami kong na miss, sana mabigyan pa tayo ng isa pang pagkakataon na magsama ulit.

Ingat ka lagi kong san ka man ngayon, alam ko masaya ka.. I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.

sana...

Bakit nga ba ganito, you suddenly fall inlove sa isang tao kanina mo lang nakita, halos gabi gabi iniisip mo sya, araw araw umaasa na makakasama mo sya, ang hirap mabuhay sa mga patagong pag-asa na alam mong hindi kailan man magkatotoo pero pilit ka paring umaasa na sana kahit minsan magbago ang ihip ng hangin.

Gulong gulo ang isip ko, alam ko ni minsan hindi pa kami nag kasama pero natatakot ako kasi alam ko paalis ka na, hindi ko alam bakit na lang ganun ka laki ang takot ko na hindi na kita makikita, bakit ganun, bakit ngyayari tong mga bagay na ganito, ito ba ang tawag na Love at first sight? o dahil hinahayaan kong magkaganito ako.

Ano ba gagawin ko para maramdamam mo rin ang nararamdaman ko, bakit nagkaganito, napaka-unfair naman yata, one sided lang, pinapahirapan ako ng labis labis.

sana gusto ko maging bato na lang ang puso ko, para di ko alam pano masaktan, lalo na ang alam ko ay aalis ka na, sana masabi ko sayo kung gano kita kamahal..

you don't miss me...

"Im guessing
all you ever told was lies.
Im guessing
you enjoyed watching me cry.
Im guessing
you knew I really wasn't strong.

All you ever wanted,
was to watch me fall.."

I hate you but my heart says

I MISS YOU...

smart people.. yahhh

What would you feel when talking to a "smart people"?

To be perfectly honest with you, I feel STUPID, because you make me feel like I'm STUPID that I do not know anything in this world.

at first i used to like you, coz i will learn from you, i was amazed like fcuk!! why this guy talk so brilliant, I wanna be like you, but at the end of the day i realize the way you talked to me you made me STUPID and i hate you..

yes I hate you like I wish I could tell you this.. I hate YOU.. yes YOU...

hahaha bitter lang siguro ako kasi I don't speak like them, think like them..

Peace out..

You freak the Hell out of me.... I always wanted to be like someone who could speak and write fluently just like you but hey not the way or the words your using...

What's your plan?

A goal without a plan is just a wish. - Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Enrico – He’s cool, witty and intelligent, simply Smart, Simply amazing. This guy threw a question to me during training that made me pause and think after the end of the day,even right now while writing these stuff.

He asked me “What’s your plan?” I told him to become TL.

But the big question there was;

What have you been doing for the past years to achieve your goal? WOW!@#$

I’m a kind of person always looking at the big picture, this is what I want to be, but I haven’t done anything to get to my way there. I’m just there looking I’m not zooming the big picture for me to be able see the details. It’s simply upset me because time is fleeting.

I’m 28 but look at me nothing has changed, I’m still me.

I realized that you need to have plan; a life plan and I deemed it necessary. You should know where and who you want to be by following your plan, you need to know so you may not end up wasting your time.

You have to be very focus in doing and achieving your plans otherwise the effort and attention that you spent will just spread too thin and achieve nothing. See the patterns like looking back in the past it will help you find out where you should go, connect them all and project them into the future.

You have to be more persistent in each and every day of our life, because failure is inevitable in our way; you have to keep pushing yourself forward and have faith.

I once was lost so thank you Enrico for reminding me again, I almost forgot who I wanted to be.

I will start now.

still miss you

our house feels cold and empty...
six years after your death,
I still find myself looking across our backyard
as though expecting to see you there.
Tears fall down voluntarily.

Occasionally,
questioning the voices I heard
coming from you room
where you used to stay and sleep.

Still somehow hoping that it is not true,
but that you are still with us.
Still hear to help us,
still here to share a laugh,
and most of all be a Father to us.

still hurts dad,
I still miss you.

I love you dad...

contented

I am no special,
just a common man with a common thoughts
there are no monuments dedicated to me,
and my name will soon be forgotten.
But in one respect
I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone
who ever lived.
I've Loved another with all my heart and soul
and for me
that has always been
ENOUGH

thoughts for the day

Yesterday is HISTORY

Tomorrow is MYSTERY.

Today is a GIFT.

That's why it's called PRESENT

sarap maligo

when i die

when i die.. toss my ashes into the wind, let my spirit go, for this is the only chance to live my life free from trouble and problem. I won't let go of the love I Have for you, i'll keep it wherever i'll go, I will cry for I will no longer touch you, breathe you and most of all feel the warmth of your embrace.
when i die.. never give up on your life, i will still here watching you, love you and guide you. but I know time will come when you need someone, someone that makes fill the emptiness that i've cause, I will soon cry for i will no longer feel the your love anymore.

let me tell you this, I love you... words are not enough to express the love i feel for you, I love you