I remember the day

I remember when I applied for a job somewhere in makati, Napadaan kasi ako sa building na yon kasi pinuntahan ko yong friend ko, of course exam muna bago interview, sa exam palang napansin ko na itong Gay na nag iinterview di ko alam na sya din pala mag iinterview sa akin, naiinis kasi ako kasi yong kasamahan namin sinigawan dahil may tumawag sa phone nya. siguro dahil ilonggo sya.

Guy: hello ma, wa gid ka nag hambal sa akon ba, sana ako na lang mag bakal nun.

Gay: (pasigaw) Pwede ba kung gagamit ng phone sa labas.

Kawawa naman si guy medyo napahiya din.. sabi ko sa sarili ko parang ayaw ko ng ituloy to. nababdtrip kasi ako pag ganyan ang mga tao walang motto. hehehe

Nakapasa naman ako sa exam, pauwi na sana me nang tinawag na name ko para interview, nawalan na me ng gana so napaisip ko total ayaw ko na man lang gagagohin ko tong taong to.

Gay: Hi gud morning, Maupo ka. after that sinabi nya agad itong napa ka common na tanong. "Mr. Noel tell me about yourself?" sinagot ko rin sya ng tanong which is not common to him.

Me: You first!

sagot nya..

Gay: Wow! i'm sorry..

Me: Didn't you hear what i said?

Nabadtrip sya kitang kita sa mukha, while he review my resume tanong sya ulit.

Gay: What do you think you can contribute to the company if you get hired?

Me: Anything that you can and you cannot, I can!

Gay: Thank you for coming over.

Me: your welcome!

Di na ako umasa pa, pag ka alis ko natatawa na lang ako sa mga sinasabi ko, kaya pag napadaan me jan napapangiti na lang ako. hehehehe

yon lang!

it takes time

it happened just how I always imagine it would. so why do i feel this way? why do i feel so much sadness inside? How can someone whose suppose to makes me feel so complete, end up leaving me so EMPTY.

How can I love again when I can't stop loving the one that hurt me so much? if i could just turn back the time, if i have the power i'll probably make you stay but now, all that I ever held dear is just a memory.

its not love that takes time,
its the letting go that takes time, so much time.