Tuesday, May 19, 2009

come back to me

If I had a chance to speak to again, would you listen?

don't know what I would say, but there's so much I want to tell you.

Where would I even begin?

You've changed me in such a profound way.

Every single day,

I think of the friendship that I'll never get back.

I think of how much fun we had back then.

Back when everything was so perfect.

Back to the day when I thought to myself how I'll never find the same happiness again.

I'm constantly frustrated with myself for what I did and I breakdown.

How much longer must I go on like this before I can speak to you again

—to go back to where we left off?

"help me my friend, oh im so tired"

Tuesday, May 05, 2009


Lately sobrang saya ko.. ganito ba talaga, after na maging happy ka ganun na lang kalungkot ang kapalit,

is this the prize of being happy?

the sorrow, the pain, the fear of the unknown future somehow eat me alive, and the loneliness is breaking my heart so bad..

i wanna commit suicide leaving the world behind,

I can live this sadness no longer,

"If I ever commit suicide,
Would you care that I died?
Would you cry and ask yourself why
You didn't get a chance to say good-bye?
Would you even come to my funeral
Dressed in black and filled with sorrow?
Please tell me now of how you feel,
So that I may still live and begin to heal."