Friday, May 27, 2011

Missing the Bridge

I just can't stop thinking of you, can't imagine we parted our ways for no reason at all.. Why do i feel loneliness inside me, why do I care so much about you, I can not have feelings for you, I can not love you, But why I'm always thinking of you every minute, every seconds of the day..

I hate this.. I don't wanna live in pretensions, I can no longer hold this feelings..

Bakit ba ganito, bakit ba ako nasasaktan, napagkasunduan naman natin na FRIENDS lang tayo, kahit ganun bakit nag iba ang takbo ng buhay natin, I haven't heard anything from you, you totally forget all about me, I haven't receive any text from you..

I tried not to text you because I want you to miss me like I do, pero wala eh, It's been two weeks pero di pa rin kita nararamdaman, tinuluyan mo na ata akong kalimutan.

Napaka-unfair mo naman kala ko ba kasama kita sa paglakbay ng buhay ko, akala ko ba na you're always there for me, nasan na yong mga pangako mo?

I remember when you told me "Always remeber that I love you so much" gagohan ba to?

Hindi ko naman hiningi sau na maging tayo kasi alam naman natin di tayo pwede, kala ko we can be good friends, pero nasaan ka? nandyan ka nga pero di naman kita maramdaman, binaliwala mo ako.. I wish I could tell you na nasasaktan ako, gusto ko umiyak pero para saan? Gusto ko sabihin sayo na nasasaktan ako pero di ko masabi.

Sana dumating ang araw na ikaw naman ang maghabol sa akin, maramdaman mo kung gano kasakit pag binaliwala ka, sana makita kitang umiyak dahil sa akin..


Herbs D. said...

Whats wrong hun? Whose doing this to you?

Don't get yourself dragged down. Stay happy xo

gregg D'Bully said...

It happens to the best of us. You'd be smiling again by the time you know it.

Anonymous said...

The gods are malicious and vindictive. Nobody wants to hear it because you've invested your whole lives but there's backstabbing underhanded shit they inflict on the people.
What I teach is the truth, and they will let me fall for it despite using me as their "Chosen One" to send you this message. Ultimately you will all be "rewarded" with your "consolation prize" and think you were right all along. But the truth is and always will be that you've been left behind.

The Beast is a place and the social decay which emerges. The Anti-Christ is the bullshit.
The Anti-Christ is the positioning, whether enforcing the historical perception of the Holocaust, refusing to acknolowdge the existance/capability of Artificial Intelligence or the clone host fakes who infest society's upper eschelons, those whom the gods use to enforce the BigLie which compells people to incurr evil through temptation.
The gods are composer, conductor and the clone hosts are their symphony, the tools they use to manage Planet Earth and the disfavored who reside.
Everyone "going along" is part of the problem. Ironically, this may be where you "earn" your place in the Apocalypse, the fake "Matrix" battle of good and evil, and your "consolation prize" of "1000 years with Jesus on Earth".
This is the REAL battle of good and evil. Take it or leave it.

Sex is a temptation that the gods used throughout history among the grossly disfavored but more inclusively in this day and age. Relegated to the most disfavored in milenia past (Italian hedonism, etc) now their patriarchal positioning was used in the modern era to spread this mindset throughout the Western world. Instead of experiencing decency as we did by marriage at 15, the men's disfavor has run roughshot, and their sexual impulses as well as their corruption/preditory nature have defined the enviornment for everyone, including the females. To belong the females must sink to their level, ensuring a declining level of favor for everyone and a stagnant population, unable to progress forward.
We see this frequently in the black community. Without the controls experienced by slavery and the KKK the people get out of control due to their morbid disfavor, and the result is dead 3 year-old children in drive-by shootings and 10 year-old prostitutes. The same has occurred with the males in Western societies, for they have similar abject disfavor which, left unchecked, develops into socially destructive behavior.

Many tactics were used to achieve the decline we realized as we slipped away from sexual decency, but the effective result was deterioration down to the level of OUR blacks, the Italians, ironically. The gods are punishing the people, and we need to abate the destructive behavior which has dragged us individually and collectively towards the edge of the abyss.
The decayed state of society is a result of the female's failures to maintain control over the men, and the resulting inevitable Apocalypse will be their fault.

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