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Saturday, August 19, 2006

Goodbye nickel....

From the very beginning, I'm always afraid of the word Goodbye, It scares me to think that someone will leave me alone. I don't wanna be alone! I don't want to relive the things i did in the past because what happend in the past was traumatized me. It really hurts when someone tells
you goodbye, its like its breaking my heart into pieces and its the horrible word for me.

But I realized that Goodbye is not always sad and painful one, sometime one has to say goodbye in order to let things happend well, that we have to accept the two persons are not really meant for each other not just in lovers but in friends also.

After our separate ways with my best friend Nickel, it took me years to think why he let this things happend that we have to stop communicating each other, that we have to forget things and leave memories as it is, that we have to forget each other. Damn... How can you forget someone who makes you smile, He is like a brother to me, more than that!

Can you imagine for how many years we've been together and in just a click of a hand I lost Him its because of He found some new friends, some bunch of idiot person.. sorry for the word idiot but i think thats the best word to describe them because they took nickel in my life, I'm just trying to figure out why he leave me, I just want to know the reason.. just one very good reason nickel...

Why nickel? Am I a person with AIdS? Am I a person with Horrible face? Does it has to do with the status of your family,I'm just a poor owen that i don't have a penny in my pocket and you are the rich guy in davao... We were good friends.. why... why... why nickel?

You know what... I want to say this to you that I'm angry with you! Are you ashamed of me? You're not aware of my thoughts, my needs.. How could you do this to me? I didn't do something wrong with you. and tell me that We're Through!!! that i don't even exist in you!

If you only knew I cried so many tears, that i can't sleep well, but those were the days nickel. and I thank you for making me a strong person.. I will never forget you.

I thank you for time you spent to me, you will always be a special part of me. I'm doing great now and I'm happy with my life. I wish you happiness, I miss you friend and I love you just as well...

10 comments:

snglguy said...

I have made a lot of friends in my 45 years on this planet, and I also lost a lot of them for different reasons. It happens. Don't grieve or lose sleep over a lost friendship, think of this as an opportunity to look for new, and better friends.

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Try it out, and if you have any problems, just tell me. Have nice weekend, Owen.

jef said...

Well, I think he WAS your bestfriend before. People change, as hard as we don't want them to...but each change brings lessons to learn.

Don't discount the memories you both shared though. One time or another, he became part of your life--to teach you something...and now, perhaps his purpose is finished...and let it be that way!

...move on!

dennis said...

friends come and go just like everything else. what matters is that you don't forget the good memories and the lessons you've learned from the experiences you shared with your friend.

i've lost several people from my life too, but i also gained some more. it's just like that. that's how life operates i guess. you win some, you lose some. but those who stick with you till the end are the ones worth keeping. ayt? :-)

kendi said...

It's a cycle, they come and go.

snglguy said...

This template should have an image in the background. Hindi mo nilagayan? I think you should upload the accompanying image to a host like photobucket.com and insert the code in the template. :-)

vic said...

For me, I think I lost everyone of them, i mean those that could have been one to share the most intimate part of my life. But in final analysis, a loss somewhere could be a gain someplace. Life should always go on. And more often it could have been for a better. I just love life to worry much something beyond my control. Thanks for the visit and ice we got a plenty...

Alma Ritchel said...

drama ka karon? [joke] bitaw, it happens...sometimes in the unexpected moment...sagdi lang, i know you are replaced with better friends naman ata...

Alma Ritchel said...

oh...comments najud ko ha...heheheheh

_ice_ said...

hey guys thanx for everything share ko lng sa inyo kasi parang journal ko na to kung baga nag flashback lng me ng mga moments ko naalala ko kasi sya kasi while doing my report nagplay kasi sa radio yong So Slow ng freestyle w/c is fave namin heheheh pero im ok.. im very well... tnx guys

Jerome aka Bridget Jones is a Man said...

pards, let me tell you my philosophy in friendship which was passed down to me by the wisest person of them all: MY MOTHER. hahahaha! Here it goes: FRIENDSHIP IS SIMPLE. IT IS JUST A MATTER OF ADDITION AND SUBTRACTION. WHEN YOU LOSE FRIENDS, YOU ADD NEW ONES.

Simple. Galing ng ermats ko di ba?