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Thursday, September 11, 2008

Arbitrary thoughts


It was October 20th 2006 when you left for states,
Two days after my birthday,
I remember that vividly.
Tears fell!!
I just can't hide the feeling,
that its hurting me so much..
Deep inside, my heart beat so fast,
I'll try to be calm..
But then I tremble still with so much fear...

Fear of being alone...
Fear of losing someone that I love.. so much..

I'm so tired that I can't sleep
I'm so tired that almost every night
I hugged my pillow tight
I'm so tired that all I can do is hoping and wishing
and wanting you here beside me forever

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Are you flirt?

Do you have any idea How GUYS/GALS flirt?

A friend of mine forward this to me through email and Perhaps It will help you and I'm sharing this with you guys and gals....


HOW GUYS FLIRT:

1. He stares at you a lot.
2. He hits you a lot. (just play hitting )
3. He uses the first thing that pops into his head to start a conversation with you.
4. He yelled, "Hi!", to your mum that day she picked you up from school.
5. He blew off his buds to go see "Brown Sugar" with you cuz you couldn't get another girl pal to go and didn't want to go alone.
6. He tries to make you laugh anyway even if he gets hurt in the process.
7. His voice gets softer when ever you two talk.
8. You hung up on him. He called you back.
9. You were invited by him to a group outing.
10. He called you to talk about nothing at all.
11. He imitates your laugh. OK, you do laugh PRETTY LOUD. Which makes you laugh even harder...
12. He remembers little things you mention in casual conversation.
13. He sometimes stares straight into your eyes.
14. He uses every possible way to touch you (your hair, face, thighs, KNEES, ect.)


HOW GIRLS FLIRT:

1.She calls you by your full name not just a nick name.
2. She hits you softly on the arm and laughs when you say something funny.
3. She flips her hair when she's talking to you.
4. She touches your arm when she talks to you.
5. She says, "No, I'm not telling you who I like!" with a big smile on her face.
6. She asks you who you like or who you would go out with seemingly interested.
7. When you go to the movies with a bunch of your friends and she is almost always next to you.
8. She criticizes you on a girl you like.
9. You catch her staring at you.
10. She plays with your hair or tries to put make up on you.
11. Her friends outside of school and in school know about you, and says she talks about you a lot.
12. She knows your phone number and address. ( stalker much? )
13. She will try and talk, and spend time with you as much as possible.

Sunday, September 07, 2008

Impracticable plan

Last night while writing some stuff and thinking of what would be the best issue to tackle here, I was kinda confuse. and pause for a moment to imagine a possible sensible topic... kaso wala talaga pumasok sa isip ko eh.
It's my personal blog, so I realize I have to write what is/was happening to me or any unfortunate events or any future events.. it could be love hmmm (here we go again), pain, happiness, struggles and achievements.

after that...

I struggle of falling back into sleep, thoughts begins to occupy my mind.....
sad to say they are not happy thoughts and I'd like to think they are not bad either,
the truth is I dont really want to enterpret them in any way,

it's just that I feel sad..

I wonder why?

Lately, loneliness always hitting me up for no reason at all.
It means I don't have decent sleep almost everynight, so I spend a lot of time in blogging.

There comes a time when you are tired of giving meaning in many things.
Have you ever experience feeling alone in a crowd and find yourself wishing you are in another place in another time?

I find myself doing that a lot in recent weeks,

I wanted to see the ocean...
I wanted to run in an endless beach and wet my feet in gentle rolling water...

It's the best thing, playing in the ocean alone...
I wanted to hear the sea in its natural sound...

The lapping of the waves against the sand.. time is when there is nothing matters,
when you can just sit all day..

or do the things you like to do, never worry about the future or what do people thinks about you
when you can be yourself and treat life as a never ending adventure like a music born out of lullaby tune.

well, I will try to sleep, I will try to be calm,
I hope this thoughts will come true one of this days...

smile at me. tnx