Monday, September 04, 2006

when death approaches...

Last night I really had a terrible nightmare, my father visit in my dreams and its like I can't move and i tried to scream but no one hear me. I really don't have any idea why i came up with this thing, maybe its because I've only visited my father's grave once. but i hope he'll understand me, I'm here in manila and I'm working for his family he once left..

I miss him so much if I could turn back time probably I would spend a lot of time to him and treat him wherever he wants to go. I miss him like every morning he always played Beatles music its actually our favorite band. I miss him like we used to sing together "across the universe", "the long and winding road".

I miss him like we used to play "tong 8s" and "Pusoy dos" and of course he was a good player when it comes to Chess, he made it to the top one in his work before.

I miss him a lot and I realize that I love him so much more now the he's gone. I wish I could say to him the word "I love you" but i know its really really too late for me, for my entire life I never say that word to him. only if he could read my mind and feel the beat of my heart, and he will know how much I love him.

Sana kahit dito man lang masabi ko "Dad I love you so much and i miss you a lot"...
here's a song for you dad, palagi natin tong kinakanta..

Long and winding road..
for may dad

The long and winding road
That leads, to your door
Will never disappear
I've seen that road before
It always leads me rehe
Lead me to your door
The wild and windy night
That's the rain, washed away
Has left a pool of tears, crying for the day
Why leave me standing road
Let me know the way
Many times I've been alone
A many times I've cried
And anyway you'll never know
The many ways I've tried
But still they lead me back
To the long, and winding road
You left me standing here, a long long time ago
Don't leave me waiting here
Lead me to your door
But still they lead me back
To the long, and winding road
You left me standing here, a long long time ago
Don't keep me waiting here
Lead me to your door.


angel said...

ako din nakakapanaginip..lola ko naman.. 3x na! pag pray mo na lang xa..

yung bg music mo naman nakakalungkot..:D

dennis said...

geez that's scary...well i think you're just stressed out or something. dreams are just dreams..u dont have to give them more than what is required...take it easy...

ayan..baka sign na yan na dapat nang magpakatino wen..bwahahaahha

kneeko said...

yup pray for your dad... baka un lang ask niya..

joni said...

ei, i hope your ok na. maybe God just wanted to remind you of your dad and how much he means to you. :)

Jerome_Daclison said...

this post made me remember my experience when my father died. well, things should suppose to make us stronger right? :-)

Listen to Luther Vandross's song: DANCE WITH MY FATHER.

jef said...

A great tribute Ice :-) I wish your father had the chance to know how you really feel.

kendi said...

ah... the mind is an amazing organ. you think about something too much.

ei, wla na ung url link ng blog ko dito ah...


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snglguy said...

Wherever your Dad is, I'm sure he knows how much he meant to you. Just make sure you pray for him every once in a while....

Anonymous said...

err.. I don't know what the Man up there is telling me ha pero these days, I usually stumble on blogposts with "father" as the central idea. They all talk about the postive things about their father.. err.. quite contradictory to mine.

She said...

Hello... Wherever your Dad is right now, I'm sure all his wishes are for you. And until now, he is caring for you... This is a very touching story. Must remind my Dad that I love him so much. Thanks for sharing.

Anonymous said...

your post reminds me of my lola. I really miss her. Ohhh..."if and only if..i could turn back time also"....