my destiny... my soulmate

I have always known that deep inside... there was someone else I was waiting for... I always felt that there was somethin... Incomplete with my every day life Too much doubt... Too much pain... All these i have mastered All these i have become bitter of, Not knowing that in the future, You will come to my life... You made me whole... You made me bring back, The real me who was hiding behind the terror of what i used to be and what i have become, Foolish enough to let someone change me... Yet you came and carried me back To where i should belong... Where i should go on... Wrapped around in your arms... Being loved by you... Made complete because of you... Starving for the love of you.. Living for you... Needing and wanting to be just where you are...my soulmate...

something new

It's been such a long time since I took time to grab a pen and a paper to write something about my life and how things change my points of view this past few months. I really need to be decisive in everything, in everywway now that I started to work in a call center environment.

People around me were damn good about making decisions in their lives, I never thought that in just a blink of an eye my dreams seems to come true. Im so happy, really really happy that finally some sort of new things add some sugar in my daily life. I feel excited with the life I had now, I have someone to call on my own, I have some friends who's there whenever things might go wrong, I have God to call when I'm needed Him most.

How can I ask for more... well i think I just have to pray that God would show His path should lead me to a better life and makes me a different person, something that my parents can boast me and make proud of me.

Guys thank you so much for being there for I love...

Euphoric Experienced

I knew this thing would come, that finally guys we had graduated from training. But I never thought along the way I would realized I've already miss you. I don't know how to tell you guys how I love you, each and every moment that we had always made me cry, till now.

I am invigorated and full of hope that i/we will soon have the chance to make mark and make name in the world that we're about to start. This would be a tough challeges now for us. and i know we can do it, we were trained to become the best and far better than the others. Guys, it requires a huge amount and a dose of sacrifices to be on the top. It's something that we are willing to do for I know that all our effort will pay off in time.

Guys, we know that it will start from clean slate and its just a matter of focus and being assertive. We have to show to them guys that we are different, that we should not be bother of difficult things, and we may last longer than what we imagined.

Its our life and we have to do something for ourself not just for our own fullfilment but for the person who inspired us to move a greater heights.. and thats Ms. Malou.

Ms. Malou....

I know I have always been the weakest person in the class, if you could only knew that Every words that you uttered made me a better person, that I was able to gain strength, my heart beat faster and faster with eagerness and surpass everything, and I love you for that. I just can't forget the day you made me cry, it was really an embarrasing moment for me.. hehehehe

To our Mentor, Ms Christine and Sir Bong..

In behalf of Wave 11B, Thank you so much for the lesson and thoughts the you shared to us.

We will not forget you guys...

To my batch WAVE 11B

You're The BEst Friends I Ever Had... I lOve You...

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http://www.zhel04.multiply.com

way back into love...

I just really love this song, From Music and Lyrics starring Drew Barrymore and Hugh Grant.

Ive been living with a shadow over head

Ive been sleepin with a cloud above my bed

Ive been lonely for so long

Trapped in the past,

I just cant seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

Just incase I ever need them again someday

Ive been setting aside time,

to clear a little space in the cornners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I cant make it through without a way back into

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

Ive been searching but I just dont see the signs

I know that its out there

Theres got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not just somebody to get me through the night

I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions

Chrous

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I cant make it through without a way back into love

and If I open my heart again I guess

Im hopin you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I dont know if its realor

if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration, not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I cant make it through without a way back into love

and If I open my heart to you

Im hopin you'll show me what to doand if you help me to start again

you know that I'll be there for u in the end

Is this Love...

Lately I'm having trouble defining the feelings I have here inside..

I think I need more time to think it over if its Love.

If its really love,

then,

is this the reason why I don't have decent sleep and it's been a weeks already.

I wanna know why?

I'm craving to see you more often,

I'm longing to kiss your lips,

I'm dying to hug you tight.

I need you here beside me.

Is it Love? Is this Love?

Please tell me.. I wanna know...

to my friend pyem

I wonder if your thinking of me now?

My friend and I are so far apart.

I wonder when you'll come to me?

I can't hardly wait to see you my friend.

how I wish you were with me now,

my friend my heart so sad I need you now.

You call me and I ask,

"When will you be home?"

"Soon enough my friend," you said.

And then we say our good bye's again.

My friend your so very far apart.

I miss you, how could I ever let you go?

My friend,

we're millions miles away

I'll wait for you as night waits for day.

My thoughts are always with you

even your so very far away.

My friend I'll still wait for you...

and if you ever change your mind

I still, I will wait for you.

nostalgia...

Why I can't love the person I love?
When I'm also capable of loving
Why do I have to suffer so much pain
sacrifice my feelings just to set you free.

I have always been there for you
not because you asked me to
My feelings for you is an endless love
But why can't you notice it even just for a single day

For all the pain He made to make you cry
I'm the one who comforts you every single night
my broken heart wished you will never part
still I'm waiting to notice my weeping heart

now that you're gone, my hope burried with loneliness
now that you're gone, my world filled with sadness
what hurts most is that nobody left
my life now is nothing but an infinite grief
lost in the vast abysses of space and time

some people...

People tend to dismiss me for a lot of things coz im a different person from someone else's eyes; either im a snob, evasive or just a wolf in sheeps clothing. I guess you just have to dig deep to know my principles and ideals and see for yourself. There are people I enjoy having meaningless conversations with, but people who delve deep are rewarded with my trust and loyalty. I'm a bitchy-bastardy kind of friend coz sometimes I ask simple things in complicated ways, but I'm very sincere and quite sentimental to those I consider as a true friend (and I expect the same from anyone i call friend). I don't feel the need to sell my personality to live up to peoples expectations. I had my fair share of detractors (ganon talaga pag medjo maapeal -- you get loads of attention, course, I don't expect that they could relate and I don't expect everybody to like me. ^_^)
I know they should be treated with patience and understanding and all, but sorry, not from me. xenxa na, I don't work well with quidnuncs and their below sea-level personalities.

God bless them na lang. Im no longer a bibliophile, or maybe I'm not as spontaneous as I used to be, but do stick around -- I might actually say something good from time to time. ^_^..

Reminiscing Love...

I walked beneath the stars last night
The moon was full and shining bright
The breeze blew softly through the trees
And from my heart came the memories
Of a love I knew so long ago
It brought an ache to my heart to know
That you are gone


your arms around me held me tight
As I stood wrapped in your love that nigh
your lips on mine, our bodies press'd
So close together, so much in love
No one could say it was wrong or right
By mortal man or in God's sight
Now that your gone


I walk alone with all my dreams
My way of life or so it seems
I walk along in the moonlit night
And view the past with shadowed sight
Not always just the way it's seen
But mostly how it might have been -
if you were not gone.

anger management...

Anger is a natural and occasionally healthy emotion but, like most things in life, it must be experienced in moderation and kept in check. Anger is a great motivator and can lead you to defend yourself or your interests when needed. But, if you let it get out of control, however, the downside of anger is that it affects most aspects of your life. Your career and your personal relationships hinge on the professionalism and kindness you display, so your anger can be destructive by showcasing your more childish and uncontrolled aspects. You may see your bursts of anger as assertions of your masculinity or strength, but they are harmful to others and the relationship they have with you.

how's life after 2006...

After 2006, I decided to leave all those hatred, grudge that i kept inside and forgive those people who cause these feelings. I wanted to have a smooth flow of life, living it to the fullest but I just can't seem to figure it out why still there are some guys like to dumb people. I don't wanna make trouble as much as possible I avoid them, I don't want to show my wrath and the other side of me.

Lately I tried to ignore bad things, people who doesn't like me, anyway I don't expect everybody to like me, I don't have even a single penny to sacrifice for them to like me. I don't give a damn.
I live my life as much as I wanted to without hurting anybody's feeling. Right now I'm happy, like really really happy.

Happiness comes from with-in and not from some else.

I'd like to grab the opportunity of thanking everybody for being a part my life.